Wednesday
Jul232008
Thinking too much
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 at 11:07AM
Sometimes I think too much.
by gutter
In moments of intense apathy I tend to begin wondering what the point is. This isn't depression, despondancy, or dejection. I don't think so anyways, I almost wish it were. Negative emotions are easier to deal with. The energy required to maintain a depressive mood is too high for me to sustain for long.
Indifference requires no energy, making it difficult to get out of.
It seems that these moods are started and maintained largely by irregularity in my life. I take a nap and it screws with my sleeping schedule, making me tired one moment and vibrating with energy the next. I sleep late, show up for work late, and consequently skip breakfast. I'm so hungry by lunch that I over eat and afterwards I'm virtually paralyzed by the discomfort of an over full stomach and the exhaustion that comes as my body diverts all available energy to digesting.
by Aaron Edwards
Showing up late means that I have to stay late. And despite my huge lunch I'm usually starving by the time I get home after 7.5 hours without eating. I have a quick meal, and unless I exercise all of my available free will, I'll take a nap and the cycle begins again.
by play4smee
It's during these unintended deviations from routine that I become more introspective. With my energy fluctuating wildly, my mind unfocused, I begin a downward spiral of self-consultation, asking increasing fundamental questions of myself.
by Mrs. Maze
Should I get a new job? Would a new job make me happier? Am I even unhappy? How happy can I reasonably expect to be? What is happiness anyways? Do I need a job, a car, a condo, a computer to be happy? If not, then what's the point in working to get these things?
Is happiness the point of life? What's the point of life at all?
by Jari Schroderus
Once I get down to the fundamental I'm forced to stop asking. There is nothing there. There is no answer to the fundamental. Sure some would say this is where religion comes in, but for me that's taking the easy way out. Reading a religious text for answers about life is sorta like reading the Cliffs notes for Hamlet. All you are getting is someone else's interpretation of something you should really be thinking about yourself.
by Luderbrus
No, there is no answer to the fundamental. It's like staring into a void and searching for detail. Nothing there, no reason. After awhile of staring you may start to see faint colors and shapes, sparks of light. But the things you think you see are produced by your own mind. And ironically, those artifacts of your own conscienciousness are the only things by which you can judge the void.
by pingnews.com
Our ideas of what we THINK is important is the only thing that really IS important. It doesn't matter if it's not based on any deeper truth because it's the only thing we have to go on. At some point you have to make assumptions about truth and the nature of the universe and then move on. Existential navel-gazing might be an interesting thought experiment, but it doesn't put food on the table or help you find love.
by Poppy Wright
These are the trips my mind goes on. I loiter about inside my head, playing with fundemental concepts of truth, love, and the meaning of life until my supervisor tells me that I need to verify 53 Type II DR's in the next two hours before we deliver the next version of software to the customer. Time to work.
by D LeRoy
by gutter
In moments of intense apathy I tend to begin wondering what the point is. This isn't depression, despondancy, or dejection. I don't think so anyways, I almost wish it were. Negative emotions are easier to deal with. The energy required to maintain a depressive mood is too high for me to sustain for long.
Indifference requires no energy, making it difficult to get out of.
It seems that these moods are started and maintained largely by irregularity in my life. I take a nap and it screws with my sleeping schedule, making me tired one moment and vibrating with energy the next. I sleep late, show up for work late, and consequently skip breakfast. I'm so hungry by lunch that I over eat and afterwards I'm virtually paralyzed by the discomfort of an over full stomach and the exhaustion that comes as my body diverts all available energy to digesting.
by Aaron Edwards
Showing up late means that I have to stay late. And despite my huge lunch I'm usually starving by the time I get home after 7.5 hours without eating. I have a quick meal, and unless I exercise all of my available free will, I'll take a nap and the cycle begins again.
by play4smee
It's during these unintended deviations from routine that I become more introspective. With my energy fluctuating wildly, my mind unfocused, I begin a downward spiral of self-consultation, asking increasing fundamental questions of myself.
by Mrs. Maze
Should I get a new job? Would a new job make me happier? Am I even unhappy? How happy can I reasonably expect to be? What is happiness anyways? Do I need a job, a car, a condo, a computer to be happy? If not, then what's the point in working to get these things?
Is happiness the point of life? What's the point of life at all?
by Jari Schroderus
Once I get down to the fundamental I'm forced to stop asking. There is nothing there. There is no answer to the fundamental. Sure some would say this is where religion comes in, but for me that's taking the easy way out. Reading a religious text for answers about life is sorta like reading the Cliffs notes for Hamlet. All you are getting is someone else's interpretation of something you should really be thinking about yourself.
by Luderbrus
No, there is no answer to the fundamental. It's like staring into a void and searching for detail. Nothing there, no reason. After awhile of staring you may start to see faint colors and shapes, sparks of light. But the things you think you see are produced by your own mind. And ironically, those artifacts of your own conscienciousness are the only things by which you can judge the void.
by pingnews.com
Our ideas of what we THINK is important is the only thing that really IS important. It doesn't matter if it's not based on any deeper truth because it's the only thing we have to go on. At some point you have to make assumptions about truth and the nature of the universe and then move on. Existential navel-gazing might be an interesting thought experiment, but it doesn't put food on the table or help you find love.
by Poppy Wright
These are the trips my mind goes on. I loiter about inside my head, playing with fundemental concepts of truth, love, and the meaning of life until my supervisor tells me that I need to verify 53 Type II DR's in the next two hours before we deliver the next version of software to the customer. Time to work.
by D LeRoy
tagged depression, energy, happiness, happy, indifference, life, meaning, meaning of life, religion, thinking, time in Rant
depression, energy, happiness, happy, indifference, life, meaning, meaning of life, religion, thinking, time in Rant 
Reader Comments (1)
Maybe start with aiming to always get three square meals a day (particularly breakfast)?
:)